So I've been a reader, fan and stalker of many blogs over the years but never felt I had anything special enough to fill one. I still might not, but I guess we'll see. Greg and I have had an amazing year and are just finishing up the process to become foster parents. I decided I would love to have an outlet to record all the thoughts and feelings I've had during this process, and an easy way to keep loved ones updated. It will also be neat to have a sort of scrapbook for us to look back on.
My feelings of excitement and anxiety over the fostering adventure are pretty much neck and neck right now. I can’t wait to have another sweet kid in our house to love on and hopefully provide some much needed stability, but my days are also peppered with feelings of fear and not being able to handle it.
I’m only 25 and my parenting experience is limited to 9 pretty seamless months with Charlotte. Well if we're being honest it was 6 terrifying, exhausting weeks and then 7 months of feeling like we maybe have a handle on things. But we’re really so blessed to have such a bright and beautiful little girl who’s made my job incredibly easy. I have times of seriously doubting that I’m cut out for the challenge I know this next experience will bring. But I've recently realized that if I truly believe we're being called to do this, then I have to live every day with true faith in that calling. Faith that we'll be equipped with every tool necessary. I'm insulting God with any thoughts contrary to that. Thank goodness I'm recording this somewhere so I can come back for a reminder when the days get tough.
I'm so thankful we have such sweet and supportive friends and family who I know are going to be an invaluable gift in the coming months. Greg and I are huge believers in the "it takes a village" philosophy and I just seriously love our village. It's a good one. So stay tuned…I can't wait to see what kind of adventure is headed our way.
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